Happy Monday, friends!
The last few weeks - really the last month - have been frustrating for me in terms of my ADHD, and it finally got to me last week, especially Friday. As much as I wanted to do a bunch of things over the weekend, I also knew I needed some real time for myself. I've been working on so many different projects to pay the bills, get The Clark Collective going, job searching, helping hubs with job searching while he finishes his master's program, trying to get in as much family time as possible, managing my ADHD, and managing my doctor, health insurance, and pharmacy trifecta that is the U.S. healthcare system.
And this weekend was incredibly relaxing and enjoyable. I heard back from the agency I've been writing for and they were so supportive I was nearly in tears with feeling heard and seen. I spent so much time relaxing with my husband which was important as yesterday was his birthday! I woke up feeling renewed from the relaxtion we leaned into on Saturday, and continued to lean into that for his birthday.
I had one goal for Saturday, I will admit, and that was to make Chris the homemade New York Style Strawberry Cheesecake he requested for his birthday. I did manage that thanks to the amazing KitchenAid StandMixer he gifted me recently that I've wanted for a good 20+ years. I was in my happy place and so excited to get back into backing regularly!
Waking up this morning I still feel so good from the weekend, I feel like me. However, I know that this wont necessarily last thanks to being improperly medicated for my ADHD, so I'm giving myself a little break. Kind of anyway. For the next week or two, I'll be focusing on getting my med situation squared away and organizing for the upcoming semester (so far I am still signed up for classes despite my income uncertainty) as well as this freelance life. So far the last three months, I've taken each week and day really as it comes, but I need a bit more structure, and that's what I'm going to be concentrating on. Because I'm not currently on medication that helps my focus, anxiety, and overwhelm, I have to use more energy to do those things, therefor I am scaling back on these check-ins until I can get my medication figured out and a routine down that helps me feel more like me day to day.
I appreciate everyone's continued interest and support as I journey through going from laid off to freelance with all the things happening inbetween. It's meant so much to me and I'm excited to come back with some new updates to share with y'all ❤️️
I wouldn't tell y'all about the cheesecake I made for Chris without sharing a pic of course!! It's been years - YEARS - since I made a homemade cheesecake, bit hubs reaction was perfect, letting me know I still got my baking chops 😎 Can't wait to bake all the things I've been missing since I was diagnosed with celiac!!
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